Life," said Marvin dolefully, "loathe it or ignore it, you can't like it"

It's been around 2 months that I'm running quite bad. I have been always proud about how stable my game was. So it still may be like that. I still haven't got any losing month since the April of 2008. But the last part of March I lost, I couldn't win anything (ended with 0) during April and I'm losing this month. So I should better name it a downswing.

When I'm losing what tilts me is not the amount I loose but the impossibility of playing another 100 k hands in a very short time. The longer that time is the more I become on tilt. This is because I have a huge confidence in my game and I know for sure that in the long term I will win . But as it has been during these past 2 months I've always had some other business to keep me away from playing 10 hours a day. Going out with girlfriend is standard 2 evenings in a week, visiting parents once a week, birthday of a friend, party at a friends' house, the visit of a friend living abroad, the farewell of a friend going abroad etc. etc..

What I need really is to sit down for 3-4 days and thinking only about poker, polishing some flaws in my game, studying opponents and win some bucks for god's sake...

This is giving me a lot of stress and the cure is simple but I can't do anything about it

I hope next time I'll write something in a better mood.